Firstly, I’d like to thank everyone again for all their heart-felt comments and thoughts responding to my previous post. I know I haven’t yet replied to everyone individually, but I have each message saved andthey mean a lot to me.
In some ways, this has been a difficult period and talking about it is something I’ve put off, and shoved to the back of the closet - hence the empty blog. I can be very rational at times (good training from Neil) but to bring to an end something that I worked hard for for two years cost me some tears and there were some lurking feelings of failure alongside as well.
Now though, I’m knitting and spinning again (with a timer set) and my spirits are back up. It’s not a huge blow, I’m now doing something I love just as much, which will keep me physically healthy so that I can keep up the fibre part of my life, just at a slower rate than before. If I had any doubts about the decision, they were put to rest by my osteopath who applauded my news wholeheartedly (but with sympathy of course).
So anyway, I have a new day job - my course starts on Monday! - and I can still knit and spin for about half an hour at a time, I just set the beeper and then make sure I stretch out properly afterwards. I’ve started up the chat-room again, Wednesday nights now and using Ravelry chat through my group there as Lingr is now shut down. There’s also future Spin! designs in progress and I have one or two other ideas in the works too.
Thank you again to everyone who has hung around and supported me through this, and shared your stories with me. It’s been the network of great friends that I have that has kept me going (there were times I was thinking of putting the stash on ebay) and reminded me just how much I really love all things yarny, and that it’s still worth doing, even at half-speed.
Next post will have pictures of yarn I promise!
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July 24th, 2009 at 8:52 pm
good to see you hanging in there….don’t you ever even consider putting your stash on e-bay….and you can’t give it all up until you’ve taught me how to long draw…although I don’t believe I will ever do it!
July 27th, 2009 at 9:40 am
No, no, you mustn’t put your stash on ebay!! Good to see you on here!
July 29th, 2009 at 11:07 am
I have just re-found your blog :) and as one who has a chronic illness I felt compelled to post here and say I am so sorry to hear that you have been poorly but I am so glad to see you are coping with your health problems in your own way and succeding too :) Its not always an easy task is it ?
I too have to limit my time spinning etc ;its a case of letting go of some things in favour of others. I did originally see this as failure on my part and tried to fight it but it only made my health worse. So now I go on Ravelry, Blogging etc as much as I can but try not to get dragged in by that part of me that wants to achieve the impossible (for me ). It doesn’t mean that we have to stop developing but we do it at differnt rates now :)
Take care and keep well
Anne x
July 31st, 2009 at 7:11 am
It’s so good to see you back on the blog - how else would i know what you are doing?
Lots of sympathy for all the pains. xx
August 3rd, 2009 at 7:50 am
Really missed you, but that was just the selfish side of me… Pleased to hear that you are getting on so well though. I too have had to do the timer thing, but for work rather than spinning…:-)
Hope you continue to progress well and everything sorts itself. I do know what you mean about giving up something you love and feeling a failure - it is only a feeling though and not fact…….
hugs
Shani
August 9th, 2009 at 12:31 pm
Pleased to hear that you are starting to feel better. This may not be exactly the path you thought you were heading down - but it doesn’t mean it won’t be amazing and lead to amazing places.